Friday, June 16, 2017

"You grew up in freedom and you can spit on freedom because you don’t know what it is not to have freedom."

Ayaan Hirsi Ali:  I think that its highly exaggerated that Muslims in America, in the west are  under siege.  If that were the case, we know of groups in history who were  under siege and what they usually do is leave.  I don’t see any American Muslims leaving and going back to any Muslim country. 
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 Avi Lewis: Your faith in American Democracy is delightful. Ayaan Hirsi Ali:  Its the best Democracy.  Its the best place to be. 

 Avi Lewis: Tell that to people that believe there have been a couple of stolen elections.  That Democracy is completely broken. 

 Ayaan Hirsi Ali:  I do tell them.   You shouldn’t have stood by and watch for the Democracy to be stolen.  My point not so much that when the Democrats are in office everyone is happy or when the Republicans are in office,  everything is bad.  Its that both Republicans and Democrats and the majority of Americans fortunately, feel that they can run for office, they can get power. . . 

 Avi Lewis: As long as you’re staggeringly rich.  Totally connected and the pockets of your donors, you can do anything you want in America. 

 Ayaan Hirsi Ali:  In America you can come with no penny, nothing, no money and you can become very wealthy. . . 

 Avi Lewis: Is there a school that teaches you American cliches?  Is it part of your application process that you have to –  I’m so upset that I’m losing my cards here.  I can’t believe you just said that. 

 Ayaan Hirsi Ali:  I’ve read Alex De Toqueville and I’ve read about Democracy and lived in countries have no Democracy – that have no founding fathers, that could not, have not invented, could not resolve. . .  and so I don’t find myself in the same luxury you do.  You grew up in freedom and you can spit on freedom because you don’t know what it is not to have freedom.  I haven’t.  I know that there are many things wrong with America.  And I know that there are many things wrong with Americans, but I still believe that its the best nation in the world. 



"Vegetable oil is liquid age."

Fat-Burning Man: "...it is that toxic; it is that unhealthy. The kind of toxic effect it has is called “oxidative stress.” That’s what it promotes. It’s got to do with free radicals. Smoking causes oxidative stress, and we know smoking has effects on the skin and the lungs that essentially accelerate your aging. Well, vegetable oil doesn’t just affect your skin and your lungs; you take it into your body and it becomes you. It becomes every part of your body and every tissue in your body. So every tissue in your body is essentially going to be subject to an accelerated aging process. And how exactly that manifests is different in every genetically unique individual, somewhat defined by family history. So exactly what will happen is somewhat unpredictable, but it is predictable that something bad will happen, and conversely, when you get it out of your diet. So I think of this now as though 60 years ago, Americans entered unknowingly into a massive medical experiment where we started eating the cheapest possible food. Vegetable oils are very cheap to produce, cheap to manufacture, long shelf life. They make everything you put them in have a long shelf life. So they’re used in every processed food and lots of blood sugar-raising food, and carbohydrates, and high-fructose corn syrup, and all this. And this was an experiment. Actually, it was a literal experiment called the Minnesota Coronary Experiment that started in Minnesota in the late 1950s by a man named Ancel Keys."


"Need a self-esteem boost? Do something worthy of esteem. Do work."

"PC Lie: Body love is crucial. You should praise yourself every time you look in the mirror. 

Do this instead: Love effort, love achievement, and stop being so self absorbed. 

 "Body love" is a term used mainly by people who fixate on their bodies, feel like crap about their bodies, and then broadcast to the world the exact opposite. They want you to believe that THEY believe every dimple and crevice of their flesh is attractive, so they've created a movement to make it socially acceptable to shove their belly rolls in our faces. 

 But talking about how much you love your body means you're probably trying to convince yourself of something you really don't believe. The problem isn't a lack of self-love; it's a lack of effort, action, progress, and achievement... and overwhelming self-obsession. "Body love" is code for this self-obsession. It's forced narcissism, which is now encouraged and applauded these days. What ever happened to humility? And when did body love become a greater virtue? 

C.S. Lewis once said, "Humility isn't thinking less of yourself, it's thinking of yourself less." Yet it's seemingly more important to put yourself on a pedestal for no reason than it is to place your focus on things outside yourself. 

 If you think about it, insecurity and narcissism aren't really opposites. They're both the result of fixating on yourself too much. Body love is how people rationalize that fixation. Incidentally, whenever people broadcast their love for their bodies, I'm always reminded of the guy or gal who gushes all over Facebook about how much he or she loves their significant other when their relationship is on the rocks. Is it denial? Compensation? Or maybe they're doing the reverse of what's expected (overkill, really) to try and "be positive" about a bad situation. 

 The Alternative to Pretend Body Love: Achievement 
Need a self-esteem boost? Do something worthy of esteem. Do work. Choose something hard, uncomfortable, and outside your current skill set. Put yourself in a situation where you have to suck for a while because it's that difficult. This is especially valuable for those with body image issues. Why? Because when you try something for the first time you're going to have to focus on the craft rather than yourself. This will give your mind a reboot. 

As you become more competent, you'll develop REAL satisfaction, not the contrived, "I love myself for being me" bullshit. That stuff is a facade, plus nobody believes you when you say it. Achievement always trumps words. And learning to do a new skill when you're surrounded by people better than you is a reminder of what you CAN achieve with the right work ethic. Just get your mind off yourself. Connect. Make actual friends, and not the kind who are also insecure narcissists because they'll convince you that body love is good, but only because they're in the same situation – totally compensating for a belief that's not there."


Reading - Feb through Jun '17.

Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah by Richard Bach

Kettlebell Simple & Sinister by Pavel Tsatsouline

Keto Clarity: Your Definitive Guide to the Benefits of a Low-Carb, High-Fat Diet by Eric Westman MD, Jimmy Moore

Unsettled Matters: the Life and Death of Bruce Lee by Tom Bleecker

Tools of Titans: The Tactics, Routines, and Habits of Billionaires, Icons, and World-Class Performers by Timothy Ferriss

Wired to Eat: Turn Off Cravings, Rewire Your Appetite for Weight Loss, and Determine the Foods That Work for You by Robb Wolf

Next by Michael Crichton

Star Wars: Guardians of the Whills by Greg Rucka 

The John Matherson Series: One Second After, One Year After, The Final Day by William R. Forstchen

Star Wars: Thrawn by Timothy Zahn 

Winner Lose All--A Lando Calrissian Tale: Star Wars Legends by Timothy Zahn

5/3/1 Forever by Jim Wendler

Pirate Latitudes by Michael Crichton 

Omega Men: The End Is Here by Tom King and Barnaby Bagenda

Wolverine: Weapon X by Barry Windsor-Smith

Deadpool Minibus by Cullen Bunn & Others

Colonial Comics: New England, 1620 – 1750 edited by Jason Rodriguez


Training - "Winners focus on winning. Losers focus on winners."

6/16 - wmup, throws, press, weighted chins, dips, cg chins, xpushups, situps, hip thrust, speed bag, stretch
6/15 - stretch
6/14 - wmup, jumps, power clean/push press, squats, stretch

Haven't posted training in forever.  There have been workouts, you'll just have to trust me and use your imagination.  (Not like that.  Pervert.)  Life got in the way of blogging, switched notebooks (and those are lost to time.)  Seems like a good day to get back to doing it, as I just got back on Wednesday after a 4 day sickness induced sabbatical.  Onwards.


I Am Living Proof—Change Your Diet, Change Your Life! | Mark's Daily Apple: "February 2, 2016 was it…….while working nights I was listening to the Joe Rogan podcast, and he had on Mark Sisson……holy s@#$% Batman, the light bulb went off….like fireworks in my brain. This was the spark that was going to light the fire in my soul! When he compared a bowl of pasta to a bowl of Skittles…..it was like magic….omg, what had I been doing to my body? 

That morning I called the wife and was all excited, telling her I was going paleo…. She did not share my excitement…maybe because it was 6a.m….. I was hyped and she was just waking up. Where the lines of fate crossed was she had just had a blood test done, looking for allergies and signs that would point her to possible causes of her severe migraines. Well, a few days later her results came back, and they aligned with a paleo approach as well. BOOM…..paleo family here we go…..head first! 

My life is very different than the average person…I work in the Arctic Circle oil field. I fly up to the middle of nowhere for 3 weeks at a time. I work 12-15 hours a day for 21 days straight. All our food is provided for us. So the only choices I have are what is put out in front of me. Since I could not know everything in each dish, I just stayed on the paleo basics. It was not easy in the beginning, choosing paleo foods was easy, but I have a sweet tooth and to walk past the dessert bar day in and day out was a challenge. Some days I won, some days it won. I dove deep into reading, listening, soaking up as much knowledge as one could absorb on this lifestyle change. I want to know not just the rules, but why, how. First month was rough in swimming through it all. Energy levels up and down….endless hunger.. 

As the months rolled on, the weight melted away. I was seeing results pretty quick. Few pounds here and there. Energy levels started to max out. Sleep was great. I started to dabble in working out. My wife and I signed up for a spartan race, then the day after that was complete we signed up for an ultra half marathon mountain run….. Omg, who the hell have we become….lol. We were now running and training for fun. My wife’s migraines had all but gone away. My pains were less and less. We were becoming the people we were meant to be. Fast foward to today. I am now sitting here writing my 1 year story. I have lost 70 + pounds. I train jiujitsu 3-4 time a week while I am home. I still don’t do crazy workouts…. I personally don’t feel it’s needed. I plan on doing more running events once the snow melts. I am paleo/Primal for life. I believe in this lifestyle 100%…. I am living proof. CHANGE YOUR DIET….CHANGE YOUR LIFE"







Sunday, May 14, 2017

Same stuff.


Andre wore it better.


Wait for it...






Conundrum.


"...the scientific reality is that it’s futile to treat children as blank slates with no predetermined characteristics. Biology matters."

The futility of gender-neutral parenting - LA Times: "Offering kids the opportunity to pursue what they’d like, freed from societal expectations, is an undeniably positive thing — whether it has to do with toys, clothing, or their future aspirations. But the scientific reality is that it’s futile to treat children as blank slates with no predetermined characteristics. Biology matters. A large and long-standing body of research literature shows that toy preferences, for example, are innate, not socially constructed or shaped by parental feedback. Most girls will gravitate toward socially interesting toys, like dolls, that help social and verbal abilities develop. Most boys will gravitate toward toys that are mechanically interesting, like cars and trucks, fostering visuo-spatial skills...

One recent study, published in Infant and Child Development, showed that these preferences emerge as early as nine months of age — before children are developmentally aware that gender differences exist, at around 18 months. Another piece of evidence comes from studying girls who were exposed to high levels of testosterone prenatally, in the case of a genetic condition called congenital adrenal hyperplasia, or CAH. Girls with CAH tend to be gender nonconforming, and will prefer toys that are typical to boys, even when their parents offer more praise for playing with female-typical ones. This speaks to the vital role of hormones in developing gender preferences and sex differences in behavior, more broadly. 

We also see the same trend in our primate cousins, including rhesus and vervet monkeys. Young female monkeys gravitate toward dolls while male monkeys prefer wheeled toys, despite the fact they aren’t encouraged by other monkeys or their caregivers in their choices. In the face of scientific data, the gender-neutral movement nevertheless continues to gain momentum. Indeed, its adherents took heart in a study published last year in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, which touted the idea that the brains of women and men are identical. If so, that would offer support to the theory that gender is an artificially created, outdated concept. However, an immense body of neuroimaging research has shown brain differences between the sexes. One meta-analysis of 126 studies found that men have larger total brain volumes than women. Men also show greater white matter connectivity running from the front to the back of the brain, while women have more of these connections running between the two hemispheres. Additionally, when researchers reanalyzed the same brain data from the “no sex differences” study, they found that it was possible to correctly identify whether a given brain was male or female 73% of the time. But this discovery did not receive much attention from the media, and as a result, the initial study’s misinformation continues to spread...

I hear from many well-meaning parents who raised their children in gender-neutral homes and were surprised to find that they nevertheless gravitated toward stereotypical interests and toys. Little boys who were given pots and pans to play with turned them into makeshift toy cars, complete with self-generated engine sounds. Little girls turned to one another and started playing house. The gender-neutral trend capitalizes on fears that parents have of inadvertently limiting their child’s potential. We want the best for our children; for daughters to grow up to be as competitive for STEM jobs as their male counterparts, and for sons to possess strong social and communication skills. But whether your child leans toward gender-atypical traits will likely have more to do with the prenatal environment —testosterone levels in utero — than a perfectly balanced upbringing. Besides, so long as children are given the option to take part in activities they find interesting, there’s nothing wrong with being gender-typical. Acknowledging inherent sex differences isn’t harmful or sexist; differences don’t necessitate one sex being better than the other."


Saturday, May 13, 2017

What media bias?








Gail Simone's John Wick theory is the greatest thing.

Delusions of Grandeur.


So close.


"...medicine is quick to adopt practices based on shaky evidence but slow to drop them once they’ve been blown up by solid proof."

When Evidence Says No, but Doctors Say Yes - The Atlantic: "When you visit a doctor, you probably assume the treatment you receive is backed by evidence from medical research. Surely, the drug you’re prescribed or the surgery you’ll undergo wouldn’t be so common if it didn’t work, right? For all the truly wondrous developments of modern medicine—imaging technologies that enable precision surgery, routine organ transplants, care that transforms premature infants into perfectly healthy kids, and remarkable chemotherapy treatments, to name a few—it is distressingly ordinary for patients to get treatments that research has shown are ineffective or even dangerous. 

Sometimes doctors simply haven’t kept up with the science. Other times doctors know the state of play perfectly well but continue to deliver these treatments because it’s profitable—or even because they’re popular and patients demand them. Some procedures are implemented based on studies that did not prove whether they really worked in the first place. Others were initially supported by evidence but then were contradicted by better evidence, and yet these procedures have remained the standards of care for years, or decades. 

 Even if a drug you take was studied in thousands of people and shown truly to save lives, chances are it won’t do that for you. The good news is, it probably won’t harm you, either. Some of the most widely prescribed medications do little of anything meaningful, good or bad, for most people who take them. 

 In a 2013 study, a dozen doctors from around the country examined all 363 articles published in The New England Journal of Medicine over a decade—2001 through 2010—that tested a current clinical practice, from the use of antibiotics to treat people with persistent Lyme disease symptoms (didn’t help) to the use of specialized sponges for preventing infections in patients having colorectal surgery (caused more infections). Their results, published in the Mayo Clinic Proceedings, found 146 studies that proved or strongly suggested that a current standard practice either had no benefit at all or was inferior to the practice it replaced; 138 articles supported the efficacy of an existing practice, and the remaining 79 were deemed inconclusive. (There was, naturally, plenty of disagreement with the authors’ conclusions.) 

Some of the contradicted practices possibly affect millions of people daily: Intensive medication to keep blood pressure very low in diabetic patients caused more side effects and was no better at preventing heart attacks or death than more mild treatments that allowed for a somewhat higher blood pressure. Other practices challenged by the study are less common—like the use of a genetic test to determine if a popular blood thinner is right for a particular patient—but gaining in popularity despite mounting contrary evidence. Some examples defy intuition: CPR is no more effective with rescue breathing than if chest compressions are used alone; and breast-cancer survivors who are told not to lift weights with swollen limbs actually should lift weights, because it improves their symptoms. A separate but similarly themed study in 2012 funded by the Australian Department of Health and Ageing, which sought to reduce spending on needless procedures, looked across the same decade and identified 156 active medical practices that are probably unsafe or ineffective. The list goes on: A brand new review of 48 separate studies—comprising more than 13,000 clinicians—looked at how doctors perceive disease-screening tests and found that they tend to underestimate the potential harms of screening and overestimate the potential benefits; an editorial inAmerican Family Physician,co-written by one of the journal’s editors, noted that a “striking feature” of recent research is how much of it contradicts traditional medical opinion...

A 2007 Journal of the American Medical Association paper coauthored by John Ioannidis—a Stanford University medical researcher and statistician who rose to prominence exposing poor-quality medical science—found that it took 10 years for large swaths of the medical community to stop referencing popular practices after their efficacy was unequivocally vanquished by science. According to Vinay Prasad, an oncologist and one of the authors of the Mayo Clinic Proceedings paper, medicine is quick to adopt practices based on shaky evidence but slow to drop them once they’ve been blown up by solid proof...

In 2007, after a seminal study, the COURAGE trial, showed that stents did not prevent heart attacks or death in stable patients, a trio of doctors at the University of California, San Francisco, conducted 90-minute focus groups with cardiologists to answer that question. They presented the cardiologists with fictional scenarios of patients who had at least one narrowed artery but no symptoms and asked them if they would recommend a stent. Almost to a person, the cardiologists, including those whose incomes were not tied to tests and procedures, gave the same answers: They said that they were aware of the data but would still send the patient for a stent. 

The rationalizations in each focus group followed four themes: (1) Cardiologists recalled stories of people dying suddenly—including the highly publicized case of jogging guru Jim Fixx—and feared they would regret it if a patient did not get a stent and then dropped dead. The study authors concluded that cardiologists were being influenced by the “availability heuristic,” a term coined by Nobel laureate psychologists Amos Tversky and Daniel Kahneman for the human instinct to base an important decision on an easily recalled, dramatic example, even if that example is irrelevant or incredibly rare. (2) Cardiologists believed that a stent would relieve patient anxiety. (3) Cardiologists felt they could better defend themselves in a lawsuit if a patient did get a stent and then died, rather than if they didn’t get a stent and died. “In California,” one said, “if this person had an event within two years, the doctor who didn’t [intervene] would be successfully sued.” And there was one more powerful and ubiquitous reason: (4) Despite the data, cardiologists couldn’t believe that stents did not help: Stenting just made so much sense. A patient has chest pain, a doctor sees a blockage, how can opening the blockage not make a difference?"

...At the same time, patients and even doctors themselves are sometimes unsure of just how effective common treatments are, or how to appropriately measure and express such things. Graham Walker, an emergency physician in San Francisco, co-runs a website staffed by doctor volunteers called the NNT that helps doctors and patients understand how impactful drugs are—and often are not. “NNT” is an abbreviation for “number needed to treat,” as in: How many patients need to be treated with a drug or procedure for one patient to get the hoped-for benefit? In almost all popular media, the effects of a drug are reported by relative risk reduction. To use a fictional illness, for example, say you hear on the radio that a drug reduces your risk of dying from Hogwart’s disease by 20 percent, which sounds pretty good. Except, that means if 10 in 1,000 people who get Hogwart’s disease normally die from it, and every single patient goes on the drug, eight in 1,000 will die from Hogwart’s disease. So, for every 500 patients who get the drug, one will be spared death by Hogwart’s disease. Hence, the NNT is 500. 

That might sound fine, but if the drug’s “NNH”—“number needed to harm”—is, say, 20 and the unwanted side effect is severe, then 25 patients suffer serious harm for each one who is saved. Suddenly, the trade-off looks grim. Now, consider a real and familiar drug: aspirin. For elderly women who take it daily for a year to prevent a first heart attack, aspirin has an estimated NNT of 872 and an NNH of 436. That means if 1,000 elderly women take aspirin daily for a decade, 11 of them will avoid a heart attack; meanwhile, twice that many will suffer a major gastrointestinal bleeding event that would not have occurred if they hadn’t been taking aspirin. As with most drugs, though, aspirin will not cause anything particularly good or bad for the vast majority of people who take it. 

That is the theme of the medicine in your cabinet: It likely isn’t significantly harming or helping you. 

“Most people struggle with the idea that medicine is all about probability,” says Aron Sousa, an internist and senior associate dean at Michigan State University’s medical school. As to the more common metric, relative risk, “it’s horrible,” Sousa says. “It’s not just drug companies that use it; physicians use it, too. They want their work to look more useful, and they genuinely think patients need to take this [drug], and relative risk is more compelling than NNT. Relative risk is just another way of lying.”"


Jackie Chan Gets It.


#seemslegit


Remember when Trump was literally Hitler?

Good times.

Women: greater gender in-group bias + heightened anticipatory fear response.

Gender differences in automatic in-group bias: why do women like women more than men like men? - PubMed - NCBI: "Four experiments confirmed that women's automatic in-group bias is remarkably stronger than men's and investigated explanations for this sex difference, derived from potential sources of implicit attitudes (L. A. Rudman, 2004). In Experiment 1, only women (not men) showed cognitive balance among in-group bias, identity, and self-esteem (A. G. Greenwald et al., 2002), revealing that men lack a mechanism that bolsters automatic own group preference. Experiments 2 and 3 found pro-female bias to the extent that participants automatically favored their mothers over their fathers or associated male gender with violence, suggesting that maternal bonding and male intimidation influence gender attitudes. Experiment 4 showed that for sexually experienced men, the more positive their attitude was toward sex, the more they implicitly favored women. In concert, the findings help to explain sex differences in automatic in-group bias and underscore the uniqueness of gender for intergroup relations theorists."

Men and women differ in the way they anticipate an unpleasant emotional experience, research finds -- ScienceDaily: "Men and women differ in the way they anticipate an unpleasant emotional experience, which influences the effectiveness with which that experience is committed to memory, according to new research. In the study, supported by a grant from the Wellcome Trust, women showed heightened neural responses in anticipation of negative experiences, but not positive ones. The neural response during anticipation was related to the success of remembering that event in the future. No neural signature was found during anticipation in either positive or negative experiences in men. Dr Giulia Galli, lead author from the UCL Institute of Cognitive Neuroscience said: "When expecting a negative experience, women might have a higher emotional responsiveness than men, indicated by their brain activity. This is likely to then affect how they remember the negative event." "For example, when watching disturbing scenes in films there are often cues before anything 'bad' happens, such as emotive music. This research suggests that the brain activity in women between the cue and the disturbing scene influences how that scene will be remembered. What matters for memory in men instead is mostly the brain activity while watching the scene...  This finding might be relevant for psychiatric disorders such as anxiety, in which there is excessive anticipation of future threat and memory is often biased towards negative experiences."

Listener-Blue — feminismisahatemovement: it-goes-both-ways: ...: "...what you may not be aware of is the *reason* women get more afraid than men at horror shows. It’s because women are more prone to *anticipate* and have a negative emotional response to the upcoming terrible event. Don’t hate me. Hate science. “But you’re not answering my question… what does Feminism mean?” I’m getting to that. See, science… when it’s done as science actually finds out some pretty crazy shit. Like did you know that men naturally have almost no bias for other men? “Bullshit!” No, seriously. Men lack (or have an exceedingly small amount) of a trait known as “in-group bias”. Pound for pound men just like women more. They like talking to them, like being around them, like spending time with them and care about them and their well being WILDLY more than they do other men. “Okay, so what? Guys are douchenozzles to other guys? Big fucking deal.” 

Except women don’t lack that trait. In fact, women have in group bias in *spades*. Women like women more than they like men. A lot more than they like men. For example, if two people are bleeding… one male and one female.. a woman (and a man actually) will almost always be drawn to help the bleeding female rather than the bleeding male. And this isn’t social conditioning that girls are weak. This trait shows up in children kindergarten age. “You’ve made me sit through all this shit why again?”. 

Tie the two together. Tie in group bias with heightened anticipatory fear response. Then give them political power. Meet Feminism. 

Or, try this: In Canada abused women get three hundred and fifty million a year in services from the Canadian government for domestic abuse shelters, help, and so forth. Men get $0.00. Remember what I said about men not being overly concerned about the welfare of other men? And how women are hyper concerned about the welfare of other women and themselves, especially in relation to dangers perceived or real? So… okay, an instinctual bias towards a specific kind of public policy. That doesn’t mean the fears aren’t real? No, the fears often are very real… but the *response* to those fears is very often disproportionate to what they’re afraid of. And more importantly, in a group with a primary driving force of in group bias… you *never* see the concern for men that you do for women under any circumstances. It not only doesn’t exist, it never will. It’s why a group of Feminists cheering about women dwarfing the number of men in college isn’t met by anyone with a lot of puzzled looks. 

“But alright… so Feminism isn’t so much about equality, but how can you be against helping women and seeing that they have equal rights?” I’m not. “But you’re against Feminism.” Feminism isn’t about equal rights. Feminism is an anticipatory response to a perceived fear that has snowballed since its earliest inception driven by women’s in group bias and men’s lack thereof. 

And here’s why I’m Anti-Feminist: Because it shows no sign of slowing. There is no “end" game. There is no “equality" that can be reached for the Feminist. Seriously. ever think about that? At what point do the Feminists pack it up and call it a day? What event could occur that would convince Feminists the “patriarchy has been dismantled" and they could go home? Hint: it will never happen. No event would trigger that. Equality can never be reached for the Feminist… so all the Feminist movement can do is attempt to secure more and more and more power and advantage (which is historically all it has ever done if you’re actually intellectually honest about the whole thing). And that’s dangerous as fuck."


"Maybe, just maybe, men are not broken versions of women."

Listener-Blue — The last post makes me wonder..: "What was on my partner’s shopping list of perfect womanly traits when he interviewed me for the position of possible long term relationship? Was he looking for someone needy and demanding? Someone constantly needing reassurance? Was he looking for someone who can be short-tempered and irrational? Someone who gets irritated by the tiniest thing with no warning? Was he looking for someone who is selfish at times, who often doesn’t put him first but who expects him to put her first all the time? Was he willing to put up with all of this so long as I make the dinner and do his washing? So long as I keep house? So long as I behave like a proper little wifey? You know what - he doesn’t give a fuck about that stuff that men supposedly care about. Hell, I don’t even do it. Not like that. He suffers through all the shit and he doesn’t even get the good stuff?! I don’t even iron his fucking shirts for him? What kind of shit ass wife am I? He must not have read the ‘how to find a perfect wife’ manual that men are apparently given in adolescence. Or maybe, just maybe, men are not the shallow evil pigs these idiots make them out to be. Maybe, just maybe, men are capable of loving someone as a whole, just as women are. Maybe, just maybe, he tolerates my bad points because he thinks my good points outweigh them. Maybe, just maybe, he finds comfort in my company, my humour, my intelligence, my personality. Me. And maybe, just maybe, he feels that the minor inconvenience of my worse traits is overshadowed by the stuff that makes us happy together and makes our relationship work. None of which has any fucking thing to do with my ability to cook or clean or bear children. Maybe, just maybe, men are not broken versions of women. And maybe all these women that think they are should go and fuck themselves. Or maybe…. just maybe… the reason they don’t see it is because these women are just broken versions of men, unable to see anything but what they want in life. Unable to see anything but themselves. These women are unable to properly love a man because their checklist of ‘perfect man’ consists of only one thing - find a man who does exactly what I want him to.  Oh shit, wait, I think my internalised misogyny just spilled over."