Showing posts with label robert b. parker. Show all posts
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Sunday, January 01, 2023

Reading 2022

Discipline Equals Freedom: Field Manual Mk1-MOD1 by Jocko Willink 

Redemption (Ryan Drake Book One) by Will Jordan

Knee Ability Zero by Ben Patrick

Peaceful Heart, Warrior Spirit: The True Story of my Spiritual Quest by Dan Millman

Robert B. Parker's Bye Bye Baby (Spenser Book 50) by Ace Atkins 

Behind the Mask: My Autobiography by Tyson Fury 


Demolition Man by Richard Osborne

The Probability Broach by L. Neil Smith

Hell-Bent: Obsession, Pain, and the Search for Something Like Transcendence in Competitive Yoga by Benjamin Lorr 

The TB12 Method: How to Achieve a Lifetime of Sustained Peak Performance by Tom Brady

Dark Horse: An Orphan X Novel by Gregg Hurwitz  

Presto!: How I Made Over 100 Pounds Disappear and Other Magical Tales by Penn Jillette 

The Basic Laws of Human Stupidity by Carlo M. Cipolla

The Size of Your Dreams: A Novel that Transforms Lives by Dave Mason and Chana Mason

Baby Steps Millionaires: How Ordinary People Built Extraordinary Wealth-- and How You Can Too by Dave Ramsey

Colonel Sanders and the American Dream by Josh Ozersky

Monster Hunter Bloodlines (Monster Hunters International Book 8) Larry Correia

Stress Less, Accomplish More: Meditation for Extraordinary Performance by Emily Fletcher  

Better Off Dead: A Jack Reacher Novel by Lee Child and Andrew Child

Killing Floor by Lee Child

Monster Hunter Nemesis by Larry Correia

The Lightning Rod: A Zig and Nola Novel by Brad Meltzer

The Cutting Season by M.W. Craven

Doctor Ice Pick by Claire Prentice

Chemical Pink by Katie Arnoldi  

Radical Love: Learning to Accept Yourself and Others by Zachary Levi 

Zero Negativity: The Power of Positive Thinking by Ant Middleton

You2: A High Velocity Formula for Multiplying Your Personal Effectiveness by Price Pritchett

The Last Moriarty (A Sherlock Holmes and Lucy James Mystery) by Charles Veley  

The Complete Keys to Progress by John McCallum

The Toynbee Convector by Ray Bradbury

No Plan B by Lee Child and Andrew Child

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Prodigy Volume 1: The Evil Earth by Mark Millar and Rafael Albuquerque

Nemesis by Mark Millar, Steve McNiven 

DC's Greatest Detective Stories Ever Told by Various 

Batman vs. Deathstroke by Christopher Priest & Carlo Pagulayan 

Black Summer by Warren Ellis and Juan Jose Ryp

Wonder Woman: Earth One Vol. 1 by Grant Morrison and Yanick Paquette

One Bad Day by Steve Rolston 

The Mystery Play: A Graphic Novel by Grant Morrison & Jon J. Muth 

Wild Children by Ales Kot and Riley Rossmo

Secret by Jonathan Hickman, Ryan Bodenheim, et al.

Kill Your Boyfriend by Grant Morrison, Philip Bond

Planet of the Capes by Larry Young and Brandon McKinney

Yoga Joe by Dan Abramson and Chris Mead. Illustrated by PK Olson

The Order Vol. 1: The Next Right Thing by Matt Fraction and Barry Kitson

Nowhere Men Volume 1: Fates Worse Than Death by Eric Stephenson , Nate Bellegarde, et al.

The Tithe Vol. 2 by Matt Hawkins and Rahsan Ekedal

Leaving Megalopolis by Gail Simone, Jim Calafiore

Holmes by Omaha Perez

Captain Carrot and the Final Ark Paperback by Bill Morrison, Roy Thomas, Scott Shaw 

Badlands by Steven Grant, Vince Giarrano 

Absolute Authority Vol. 1 & 2 by Warren Ellis, Bryan Hitch 

Doc Savage: The Silver Pyramid by Dennis O'Neil, Adam Kubert, Andy Kubert 

Challengers of the Unknown: Stolen Moments, Borrowed Time Paperback by Howard Chaykin 

Checkmate (Event Leviathan) by Brian Michael Bendis, Alex Maleev 

Event Leviathan Paperback by Brian Michael Bendis, Alex Maleev 

U.S.Agent: The Good Fight by Various

Animal Man 30th Anniversary Deluxe Edition Book One & Two by Grant Morrison  (Author), Chas Truog

Absolute Batman Year One by Frank Miller and David Mazzucchelli

Friday, December 31, 2021

Reading 2021

So on Easter we had a flood in East Timor. Hit our place, took out a bunch of my books, including my collection of the Spenser series by Robert B. Parker. Probably about 2/3 of them. So I decided to buy them back on Kindle and re-read them all. All 39 of them. And they're as good, if not better, than I remember. The first three in the series are good, but maybe not great. Though with the fourth -"Promised Land" - which won the Edgar Award, he really starts firing on all cylinders and is excellent. Probably doesn't hurt that's the one that introduces Hawk. The comparison and contrast between the two is a great appeal to the series. It doesn't hurt that my mind's eye always sees Avery Brooks. (Whereas, oddly, I don't see Robert Urich as Spenser. Though he was good in the series. I always pictured Spenser looking like the author, to be honest.) 

That being said, there are also 39 of Parker's novels, 40 if you count the Young Spenser book. Which took about 5 months to get through, putting on hold a bunch else I'd planned on reading this year. Alack and alas and all that kind of thing. But worth it.

There's something in those books. Good pulp-y detective fiction, to be sure, but a lot more. Ruminations on life, philosophy, relationships, friendships, autonomy, purpose, even the care and feeding of pets. Things I didn't recall from the first reads, years ago, things I'm likely more attuned to now as I get older. The follow up novels after Parker's death, over a decade ago at this point, are well crafted by Ace Atkins. But still, there's something in the original works that defy capture. And it always strikes me as, if not appropriate, but nevertheless meaningful that Parker was found dead at his desk, ready to set forth more stories.

So I re-read the Spenser Novels 1-39, his one Young Spenser book plus the Xmas novel finished by his literary agent.  And then I re-read the nine works by Atkins. The tenth is due in January, so I'm well prepared.

Which didn't leave me a great deal of time elsewhere, but here's the remainder:

The Strangest Secret by Earl Nightingale

Zen in the Martial Arts by Joe Hyams

Extreme Fitness: How to Train Like an Action Hero by Dolph Lundgren

75 Hard: A Tactical Guide to Winning the War with Yourself by Andy Frisella

The Furious Method: Transform Your Mind, Body & Goals by Tyson Fury

Sly Moves: My Proven Program to Lose Weight, Build Strength, Gain Will Power and Live Your Dream by Sylvester Stallone

The Miracle Morning: The Not-So-Obvious Secret Guaranteed to Transform Your Life (Before 8AM) by Hal Elrod

Prodigal Son: An Orphan X Novel by Gregg Hurwitz 

The Adventure of the Peculiar Protocols: Adapted from the Journals of John H. Watson, M.D. by Nicholas Meyer

The Simple Path to Wealth by J L Collins 

The Eye of Revelation: The Ancient Tibetan Rites of Rejuvenation by Peter Kelder and J. W. Watt

Jesse Stone Novels 1-9 (Night Passage, Trouble in Paradise, Death in Paradise, Stone Cold, Sea Change, High Profile, Stranger in Paradise, Night and Day, Split Image)  by Robert B. Parker 

Earl Nightingale's Greatest Discovery: Six Words that Changed the Author's Life Can Ensure Success to Anyone Who Uses Them by Earl Nightingale 

The Money Answer Book by Dave Ramsey

King Bullet by Richard Kadrey

The Chaos Kind by Barry Eisler

Hail Mary by Andy Weir

A Dud at 70... a Stud at 80! and how to do it by Noel Johnson 

Staying Supple: The Bountiful Pleasures of Stretching by John Jerome

Ancient Secrets of the Fountain of Youth by Peter Kelder

The Eye of Revelation 1939 & 1946 Editions Combined: The True Five Tibetan Rites by Peter Kelder and Carolinda Witt 

The Five Tibetan Rites: Ancient Anti-Aging Secrets of the Five Tibetan Rites by Carolinda Witt, Peter Kelder

Training With Weights by Robert B. Parker and John R. Marsh

COMICS

The Life and Times of Martha Washington in the Twenty-First Century by Frank Miller and Dave Gibbons

Wolverine: Not Dead Yet by Warren Ellis & Leinil Yu

Shazam and The Seven Magic Lands by Geoff Johns, Dale Eaglesham, Marco Santucci

Absolute Planetary V2 by Warren Ellis & John Cassaday

The Middleman - The Doomsday Armageddon Apocalypse  by Javier Grillo-Marxuach, Armando M Zanker, Les McClaine 

Department of Truth, Vol 1: The End Of The World Book by James Tynion IV and Martin Simmonds

Superman: American Alien by Max Landis, Francis Manapul, Jock, Jae Lee, Joelle Jones, Tommy Lee Edwards, Matthew Clark, Nick Dragotta, Jonathan Case 

Luthor by Bryan Azzarello and Lee Bermejo

Batman Vol. 1: The Court of Owls by Scott Snyder and Greg Capullo 

Batman, Vol. 4: Zero Year - Secret City by Scott Snyder and Greg Capullo

Batman Vol. 5: Zero Year - Dark City by Scott Snyder and Greg Capullo 

Batman: Earth One - Volumes 1, 2 & 3 by Geoff Johns and Gary Frank 

The Boys: Dear Becky by Garth Ennis and Russ Braun

Superman & Batman Generations Omnibus by John Byrne

The Art of War: A Graphic Novel by Kelly Roman and Michael DeWeese

The Batman's Grave by Warren Ellis, Bryan Hitch and Kevin Nowlan

BRZRKR Vol. 1 by Matt Kindt, Keanu Reeves, Ron Garney

Hagakure: The Code of the Samurai (The Manga Edition) by Yamamoto Tsunetomo, Sean Michael Wilson and Chie Kutsuwada

Fantastic Four 1234 by Grant Morrison & Jae Lee




Saturday, November 30, 2019

Reading, Fall '19.

Blue Moon: A Jack Reacher Novel by Lee Child

Man Made: In Which a Dad Learns to Be a Man for His Son by Joel Stein

They're Watching by Gregg Hurwitz

365 Days of Brutality: An Anti-Programming Manifesto by Jamie Lewis and Tara Chaos

Levon's Time by Chuck Dixon

The Day Remo Died (The Destroyer Book 0) by Warren Murphy, Richard Sapir

Savage Song: A Special Edition Destroyer Novella by Warren Murphy

All the Devils (A Livia Lone Novel) by Barry Eisler

Number Two: A Special Edition Destroyer Novella  by Warren Murphy and Donna Courtois

Grave Descend: An Early Thriller by Michael Crichton

The Venom Business: An Early Thriller by Michael Crichton

The Raid (Ryan Decker Book 2) by Steven Konkoly

Critical Space (Atticus Kodiak Book 5) by Greg Rucka

Patriot Acts (Atticus Kodiak Book 6) by Greg Rucka

Robert B. Parker's Angel Eyes by Ace Atkins

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Doom Patrol Vol. 1: Brick by Brick by Gerard Way and Nick Derington

Doom Patrol Vol. 2: Nada by Gerard Way and Nick Derington

The Boys Omnibus Vol. 3 by Garth Ennis and Darick Robertson

Batman: Whatever Happened to the Caped Crusader? by Neil Gaiman, Andy Kubert

Kingsman: The Secret Service by Mark Millar and Dave Gibbons

Kingsman: The Red Diamond by Rob Williams, Simon Fraser

Nemesis by Mark Millar, Steve McNiven

Prodigy Volume 1: The Evil Earth by Mark Millar, Rafael Albuquerque

Batman: White Knight by Sean Murphy

Lazarus: The Third Collection Hardcover by Greg Rucka, Michael Lark and others

Legends 30th Anniversary Edition by John Ostrander, Len Wein & John Byrne

The Poe Twisted Anthology Paperback by Various

Lazarus: The First Collection by Greg Rucka, Michael Lark

Lazarus: The Second Collection by Greg Rucka, Michael Lark

Lazarus: The Third Collection by Greg Rucka, Michael Lark

Stumptown Vol. 1: The Case of the Girl Who Took Her Shampoo by Greg Rucka and Michael Southworth

Stumptown Vol. 2: The Case of the Baby in the Velvet Case  by Greg Rucka , Matthew Southworth

Stumptown Vol. 3: The Case of the King of Clubs by Greg Rucka, Justin Greenwood, Ryan Hill

Stumptown Vol. 4: The Case of a Cup of Joe by Greg Rucka, Justin Greenwood, Ryan Hill

Fight Club 2 by Chuck Palahniuk, Cameron Stewart

The Multiversity Deluxe Edition Hardcover by Grant Morrison, Frank Quitely, Ivan Reis, Jim Lee

The Flintstones Vol. 1 & 2 by Mark Russell, Steve Pugh

The Wild Storm Vol. 4 by Warren Ellis



Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Reading - Spring 18.

Going Clear: Scientology, Hollywood, and the Prison of Belief by Lawrence Wright

Meditation for Fidgety Skeptics: A 10% Happier How-to Book by Dan Harris and Jeffrey Warren

Discipline Equals Freedom: Field Manual by Jocko Willink

The Program: A Novel by Gregg Hurwitz

10% Happier: How I Tamed the Voice in My Head, Reduced Stress Without Losing My Edge, and Found Self-Help That Actually Works-A True Story by Dan Harris

No Middle Name: The Complete Collected Jack Reacher Short Stories by Lee Child

The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself by Michael A. Singer

The Escape Artist by Brad Meltzer

The Surrender Experiment: My Journey into Life's Perfection by Michael A. Singer

Peak Performance: Elevate Your Game, Avoid Burnout, and Thrive with the New Science of Success by Brad Stulberg and Steve Magness

The Strangest Secret by Earl Nightingale

Why We Get Fat: And What to Do About It by Gary Taubes

Last Shot by Gregg Hurwitz

The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business by Charles Duhigg

Black Edge: Inside Information, Dirty Money, and the Quest to Bring Down the Most Wanted Man on Wall Street by Sheelah Kolhatkar

Robert B. Parker's Old Black Magic by Ace Atkins

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Hulk: World War Hulk by Greg Pak & John Romita Jr.

Captain Marvel Vol. 1: Higher, Further, Faster, More by Kelly DeConnick and David Lopez

Frankenstein's Womb by Warren Ellis and Marek Oleksicki

Deathstroke Vol. 2: The Gospel of Slade  by Christopher Priest and Carlo Pagulayan

Lazarus: X+66 by Greg Rucka, Eric Trautmann, Aaron Duran, Neal Bailey, Steve Lieber, Mack Chater, Justin Greenwood, Alitha Martinez, Bilquis Evely, Tristan Jones, Michael Lark

Aetheric Mechanics by Warren Ellis and Gianluca Pagliarani

Zero Vol 1-4 by Ales Kot & Various Artists

Tuesday, December 05, 2017

Reading: July - Nov 17.

Dragon Teeth by Michael Crichton

A Complaint Free World: How to Stop Complaining and Start Enjoying the Life You Always Wanted by Will Bowen

Night School: A Jack Reacher Novel by Lee Child 

The Detachment (A John Rain Novel Book 7) by Barry Eisler

Crazy Horse: A Life by Larry McMurtry

Robert B. Parker's Bull River (Virgil Cole & Everett Hitch Book 6) by Robert Knott

The Hidden School: Return of the Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman

Robert B. Parker's Little White Lies by Ace Atkins

Embarrassing Confessions of a Marine Lieutenant: Operation Branding Iron by Donny O'Malley

Flight: A Novel by Sherman Alexie

Financial Peace Revisited: New Chapters on Marriage, Singles, Kids and Families by Dave Ramsey

MONEY Master the Game: 7 Simple Steps to Financial Freedom by Tony Robbins 

Unshakeable: Your Financial Freedom Playbook by Tony Robbins

The Total Money Makeover: Classic Edition: A Proven Plan for Financial Fitness by Dave Ramsey

Good Omens: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett 

So You've Been Publicly Shamed by Jon Ronson

The Elephant in the Room: A Journey into the Trump Campaign and the “Alt-Right” by Jon Ronson

The Amazing Adventures of Phoenix Jones: And the Less Amazing Adventures of Some Other Real-Life Superheroes by Jon Ronson

True Allegiance by Ben Shapiro

The Kill Society: A Sandman Slim Novel by Richard Kadrey

I Will Teach You To Be Rich by Ramit Sethi

Swing Set by Janice Weber

American on Purpose: The Improbable Adventures of an Unlikely Patriot by Craig Ferguson

The Lost City of the Monkey God: A True Story by Douglas Preston

The Midnight Line: A Jack Reacher Novel by Lee Child

Win Bigly: Persuasion in a World Where Facts Don't Matter by Scott Adams



The Wild Storm Vol. 1 Paperback by Warren Ellis,‎ Jon Davis-Hunt 
Wolverine by Daniel Way: The Complete Collection Vol. 1 by Daniel Way, John McCrea, Staz Johnson , Javier Saltares , Steve Dillon, Bart Sears, Ken Knudsten 
The White Donkey: Terminal Lance by Maximilian Uriarte
Wolverine: Old Man Logan Vol. 1: Berzerker Paperback by Jeff Lemire, Andrea Sorrentino
Cow Boy Vol. 1 A Boy and His Horse Paperback by Nate Cosby and Chris Eliopoulos
Wolverine: Origin - The Complete Collection by Bill Jemas, Paul Jenkins, Joe Quesada, Kieron Gillen, Andy Kubert, Adam Kubert
Wolverine Vol. 1: The Brotherhood by Greg Rucka, Darick Robertson
Wolverine Vol. 3: Return of the Native by Greg Rucka, Darick Robertson 
Wolverine Vol. 2: Coyote Crossing Paperback by Greg Rucka, Leandro Fernandez
Atomic Robo and the Temple of Od by Brian Clevinger, Scott Wegener
Wolverine: Old Man Logan Vol. 2: Bordertown by Jeff Lemire
Wolverine: Old Man Logan Vol. 3: The Last Ronin Paperback by Jeff Lemire
Injustice: Gods Among Us Year One: The Complete Collection 
Wolverine: Old Man Logan Vol. 5: Past Lives Paperback by Jeff Lemire, Filipe Andrade,‎ Eric Nguyen 
Hulk: Planet Hulk by Greg Pak,‎ Carlo Pagulayan,‎ Aaron Lopresti,‎ Gary Frank,‎ Takeshi Miyazawa



Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Reading, Summer '16.

Double Play by Robert B. Parker
Becoming Holyfield: A Fighter's Journey by Evander Holyfield and Lee Gruenfeld
President Me: The America That's in My Head by Adam Carolla
Daddy, Stop Talking!: And Other Things My Kids Want But Won't Be Getting by Adam Carolla
The Perdition Score: A Sandman Slim Novel by Richard Kadrey
Natural Born Heroes: Mastering the Lost Secrets of Strength and Endurance by Christopher McDougall
Not Taco Bell Material by Adam Carolla
Hot Naked Kittens: Stories by Delicious Tacos
Eat Bacon, Don't Jog: Get Strong. Get Lean. No Bullshit by Grant Petersen
Superfolks by Robert Mayer 
The Return of Moriarty: Sherlock Holmes' Nemesis Lives Again by John Gardner
Normal: A Novel by Warren Ellis

The Tithe Volume 2: Islamaphobia by Matt Hawkins & Rahsan Ekedal
Black Magick Volume 1: Awakening, Part One by Greg Rucka & Nicola Scott 
Postal Volume 2 by Matt Hawkins, Bryan Hill & Isaac Goodhart
Hercules: Still Going Strong Paperback by Dan Abnett & Luke Ross 
Secret Six Vol. 1: Friends in Low Places by Gail Simone, Ken Lashley & Dale Eaglesham
Grayson Vol. 3: Nemesis Paperback by Tom King, Tim Seeley, Mikel Janin & Jeromy Cox
The Legacy of Luther Strode Volume 3 by Justin Jordan, Felipe Sobreiro, Tradd Moore
Injection, Vol. 1 & 2 by Warren Ellis, Jordie Bellaire and Declan Shalvey 
The Totally Awesome Hulk Vol. 1: Cho Time by Greg Pak and Frank Cho




Thursday, June 02, 2016

Reading - Spring 2016.

Robert B. Parker's Slow Burn by Ace Atkins
Morning Star: Book III of The Red Rising Trilogy by Pierce Brown
The Getaway God: A Sandman Slim Novel by Richard Kadrey
Killing Pretty: A Sandman Slim Novel by Richard Kadrey
The Wild Diet by Abel James
How to Fail at Almost Everything and Still Win Big: Kind of the Story of My Life by Scott Adams
The Book of Lies by Brad Meltzer
In Fifty Years We'll All Be Chicks And Other Complaints from an Angry Middle-Aged White Guy by Adam Carolla 
Tough Sh*t: Life Advice from a Fat, Lazy Slob Who Did Good by Kevin Smith
Growing Up Gronk: A Family's Story of Raising Champions by Gordon Gronkowski
The God's Eye by Barry Eisler

Lazarus: The First Collection Hardcover & Lazarus: The Second Collection Hardcover by Greg Rucka and Michael Lark
Postal Volume 1 by Bryan Edward Hill, Matt Hawkins and Isaac Goodhart
The Multiversity, Deluxe Edition by Grant Morrison and various artists





Monday, June 01, 2015

Reading, May '15 - “But still in the game.”

Robert B. Parker's Kickback (Spenser Book 28) by Ace Atkins
Gone Tomorrow (Jack Reacher, Book 13) by Lee Child
61 Hours (Jack Reacher, Book 14) by Lee Child
Worth Dying For (Jack Reacher, Book 15) by Lee Child
The Affair (with bonus short story Second Son) (Jack Reacher, Book 16) by Lee Child

Stumptown Volume 3 by Greg Rucka, Justin Greenwood & Ryan Hill
Ultimate Comics Captain America by Jason Aaron, Ron Garney
Ultimate Hulk vs Iron Man: Ultimate Human by Warren Ellis & Cary Nord
Ultimate Comics Thor by Jonathan Hickman, Carlos Pacheco

Gone Tomorrow
I am afraid of very little, but hassle with today’s security apparatus is always best avoided. Franz Kafka and George Orwell would have given me the same advice.

The World War Two-era Red Army greatcoat that Lila Hoth claimed to have been conceived under had almost certainly been made in America, as part of the Lend-Lease program. We had shipped a hundred million tons of woolen and cotton goods to the Russians. Plus fifteen million pairs of leather boots, four million rubber tires, two thousand railroad locomotives, and eleven thousand freight cars, as well as all the obvious heavy metal, like fifteen thousand airplanes, seven thousand tanks, and 375,000 army trucks. All free, gratis, and for nothing. Winston Churchill had called the program the least sordid in all of history. Legends had grown up around it. The Soviets were said to have asked for condoms, and in an attempt to impress and intimidate, they had specified that they should be eighteen inches long. The United States had duly shipped them, in cartons stamped Size: Medium.

Look, don’t see, listen, don’t hear. The more you engage, the longer you survive.

You can’t help anyone from a jail cell. Outside is always better than inside.

If you wish for peace, prepare for war.

61 Hours
“Certain situations and certain operations called for what the field manuals described as alertness, focus, motivation, and mental clarity, for extended periods. The doctors had all kinds of pep pills available. Straight meth was on its way out when I came on the job, but it had been around before that, for decades.” Janet Salter nodded. “It was called Pervitin. A German refinement of a Japanese discovery. It was in widespread use during World War Two. It was baked into candy bars. Fliegerschokolade, which means flyers’ chocolate, and Panzerschokolade, which means tankers’ chocolate. The Allies had it, also. Just as much, actually. Maybe more. They called it Desoxyn. I’m surprised anyone ever slept.”"

Worth Dying For
...you don’t start fights but you sure as hell finish them, and you don’t lose them either, and he was the inheritor of generations of hard-won wisdom that said the best way to lose them was to assume they were over when they weren’t yet.

The Affair
“Federal spending. You know how it was. Washington couldn’t let large parts of the South turn into the Third World, so we threw some money down there. A lot of money, actually. You ever notice how the folks who talk loudest about small government always seem to live in the states with the biggest subsidies? Small government would kill them dead.”"

Kickback
“What are your thoughts about cops in schools?” “When I was a counselor, we didn’t have them,” she said. “It’s a relatively new idea, and while I understand the need, I don’t like the message.” “Meaning?” “Some horrific things have happened in schools lately,” she said. “But while the old model had the counselors or teachers or administrators looking for solutions to most problems, all those problems now seem to fall to the school resource officer, and they’re ill-equipped to solve them. From what you’ve told me about Blackburn, and other things I’ve heard, it’s gotten very much out of hand. They’re cops. They have only one approach to a problem.” “Cops make an arrest and the school’s hands are clean.” “Out of sight and out of mind.”

“Nobody gets out of this world without a little maintenance.”

“At least you love your work.” “Some days,” she said. “When you make things right.” “Doesn’t last long,” I said. “Never does,” she said. “Only live for the moment. Order is an illusion.” “Who said that?” “Probably some dead white man.”

“You know why I hate golf?” Hawk said. “Too many assholes play it?” I said. “Exactly.”

“Turn here,” he said. I turned. “Turn there.” I turned there.

“But nobody is really going to care when you disappear, Spenser. You know how many guys I know who will throw a freakin’ party when you’re gone?” “How many?” I said. “Lots.” “But we’ll need a head count,” I said. “Appetizers. Cocktails.” “Arty?” DeMarco said. Arty looked up. Howdy Doody and Baldy had joined him to stare at me as Jackie DeMarco shamed me so thoroughly.

“White BMW,” I said. “Two guys up front.” “That’s them.” “You think you could redirect their attention while I attempt to talk to Miss Bennett?” “Be my pleasure, bawse.” “You do a good job,” I said, “and I’ll let you wax the car later.” “Lawdy,” Hawk said. “You just too good to me, Mista Spensah.” “Is that really necessary?” “Sometimes it’s important to underscore the racial dynamic to our relationship.”

“The law isn’t justice,” I said. “It’s a very imperfect mechanism.”

“For-profit prisons,” she said. “Their incentive is not to rehabilitate but rather to create a returning customer.” “Therein lies the rub.”

I’ve had worn-out parts replaced and improved the older ones. Did I not mention I’ve achieved my fighting weight?” “Better than ever.” “Maybe not better,” I said. “But still in the game.”


Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Training - "It's better to be strong than weak."

10/14 - deadlifts, chins, back xt, pulldowns, seated rows

Robert B. Parker.



  

    
  

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Reading - March, April & May - "Frankly, I’m suspicious of anyone who has a strong opinion on a complicated issue."

Micro: A Novel by Michael Crichton & Richard Preston
Listen, Little Man! by Wilhelm Reich
America Unzipped: In Search of Sex and Satisfaction by Brian Alexander
Illusions II: The Adventures of a Reluctant Student by Richard Bach
Asshole: How I Got Rich & Happy By Not Giving a Damn About Anyone & How You Can, Too by Martin Kihn
Self-Healing: My Life and Vision by Meir Schneider
Overwatch by Marc Guggenheim
Robert B. Parker's Cheap Shot by Ace Atkins
The Intern's Handbook: A Thriller by Shane Kuhn
Introducing Camus: A Graphic Guide by David Zane Mairowitz and Alan Korkos
Stick to Drawing Comics, Monkey Brain!: Cartoonist Explains Cloning, Blouse Monsters, Voting Machines, Romance, Monkey Gods, How to Avoid Being Mistaken for a Rodent, and More by Scott Adams
Issuance of Insanity 1,2&3 and Chaos & Pain: Destroy the Opposition by Jamie Lewis
5/3/1 for Powerlifting: Simple and Effective Training for Maximal Strength by Jim Wendler
The Strongest Shall Survive: Strength Training for Football by Bill Starr
Captains of Crush Grippers by Nathan Holle, J.B. Kinney and Randall J. Strossen
The Ultimate 10x10 Mass Workout, 4x Mass Workout & The Ultimate Mass Workout by Steve Holman & Jonathan Lawson
Avengers: Endless Wartime by Warren Ellis & Mike McKone
Shazam! Vol. 1 by Geoff Johns and Gary Frank
Tales of the Batman: Don Newton
Atomic Robo Presents Real Science Adventures, Volume 2 by Brian Clevinger, John Broglia and Scott Wegener
Young Avengers Vol. 1: Style > Substance by Kieron Gillen and Jamie McKelvie
Archer & Armstrong Volume 4: Sect Civil War TP by Fred Van Lente, Khari Evans and Chriscross
She-Hulk by Dan Slott: The Complete Collection Volume 1 by Dan Slott, Juan Bobillo, Paul Pelletier and Scott Kolins
Green Arrow Vol. 4: The Kill Machine by Jeff Lemire and Andrea Sorrentino
Earth 2 Vol. 2: The Tower of Fate by James Robinson and Nicola Scott
Earth 2 Vol. 3: Battle Cry by James Robinson, Nicola Scott & Trevor Scott
Welcome to Tranquility: One Foot in the Grave by Gail Simone and Neil Googe
Think Tank Volume 3 TP by Matt Hawkins and Rahsan Ekedal
Batman: The Dark Knight Strikes Again by Frank Miller and Lynn Varley

Excerpts:

Introducing Camus, A Graphic Guide
Freedom is nothing but a chance to be better.

Capital punishment becomes premeditated murder by the State, one which 'tarnishes our society.' Camus now reminds his readers, in no uncertain terms, 'that the life of a human being is above the State'...

Today, when all parties have betrayed, where politics have debased everything, the only thing left for a man is the consciousness of his solitude and his faith in human and individual values. Nothing is given to men, and the little they can conquer is paid for with unjust deaths. But man's greatness lies elsewhere. It lies in his decision to be stronger than his condition. And if his condition is unjust, he has only one way of overcoming it, which is to be just himself.

Listen Little Man
“I know that what you call 'God' really exists, but not in the form you think; God is primal cosmic energy, the love in your body, your integrity, and your perception of the nature in you and outside of you.”

A great man does not, like you, see the aim of life in riches, in social suitable marriages for his daughters, or in a political career, or in academic honors. So, because he’s different from yourself, you call him a “genius” or a “nut.” He, for his part, is quite willing to admit that he’s not a genius but only a living creature. You call him asocial because he’d rather be alone with his thoughts than listening to inane chatter at your social functions. You say he’s crazy because he spends his money on scientific research instead of investing it in stocks as you do. You dare, little man, in your abysmal degeneracy, to call him a simple, straightforward man “abnormal.” You measure him against yourself and your petty standards of normalcy and find him wanting.

You demand freedom to love your religion, whatever it may be. So far so good. But you want more than that: you want everybody to observe your religion. You’re tolerant toward your religion but no other. And it sends you into a rage that anyone should worship not a personal God but nature, that he should love nature and try to understand it. When a married couple find that they can no longer live together, you want one member to hale the other into court with accusations of immorality or brutality. And, oh, you puny descendant of great rebels, you refuse to countenance divorce by common consent

You are and always will be an immigrant and an emigrant. You immigrated into this world by pure accident and will emigrate from it without fanfare.

“But I do blame you for making a virtue of your affliction of your wrecked, tublike body, of your lack of beauty and grace and your incapacity for love, and for stifling love in children. That, you ugly little woman, is a crime….ugly little woman, not content with looking like a tub, you think and teach like a tub, because instead of withdrawing modestly into a quiet corner of life, you do your best to imprint all life with your ugliness, your tub-like ungainliness, your hypocrisy, and with the bitter hatred you hide behind your phony smile.” I don't blame you for being built like a tub or for never having experienced love..."

"You had your choice between soaring to superhuman heights with Nietzsche and sinking into subhuman depths with Hitler. You shouted Heil! Heil! and chose the subhuman. You had the choice between Lenin's truly democratic constitution and Stalin's dictatorship. You chose Stalin's dictatorship. You had your choice between Freud's elucidation of the sexual core of your psychic disorders and his theory of cultural adaptation. You dropped the theory of sexuality and chose his theory of cultural adaptation, which left you hanging in mid-air. You had your choice between Jesus and his majestic simplicity and Paul with his celibacy for priests and life-long compulsory marriage for yourself. You chose the celibacy and compulsory marriage and forgot the simplicity of Jesus' mother, who bore her child for love and love alone. You had your choice between Marx's insight into the productivity of your living labor power, which alone creates the value of commodities and the idea of the state. You forgot the living energy of your labor and chose the idea of the state. In the French Revolution, you had your choice between the cruel Robespierre and the great Danton. You chose cruelty and sent greatness and goodness to the guillotine. In Germany you had your choice between Goring and Himmler on the one hand and Liebknecht, Landau, and Muhsam on the other. You made Himmler your police chief and murdered your great friends. You had your choice between the cruel Inquisition and Galileo's truth. You tortured and humiliated the great Galileo, from whose inventions you are still benefiting, and now, in the twentieth century, you have brought the methods of the Inquisition to a new flowering. … Every one of your acts of smallness and meanness throws light on the boundless wretchedness of the human animal. 'Why so tragic?' you ask. 'Do you feel responsible for all evil?' With remarks like that you condemn yourself. If, little man among millions, you were to shoulder the barest fraction of your responsibility, the world would be a very different place. Your great friends wouldn't perish, struck down by your smallness.”
“Before the First World War there were no passports. You could cross any border you pleased without formalities. The war for “peace and freedom” introduced passports.”

I've never participated in party meetings or political conferences because all they do is shout."Down with the main point" and "hurrah for incedentals."

We have found out how the emotional plague operates.Having decided to gobble up Poland, it accuses Poland of planning armed aggression. Having decidd to murder a rival, it accuses him of plotting murder. Having contrived some pornographic enormity, it accuses the healthy of sexual depravity.

You'll have a good, secure life when being alive means more to you than security, love more than money, your freedom more than public or partisan opinion, when the mood of Beethoven's or Bach's music becomes the mood of your whole life … when your thinking is in harmony, and no longer in conflict, with your feelings … when you let yourself be guided by the thoughts of great sages and no longer by the crimes of great warriors … when you pay the men and women who teach your children better than the politicians; when truths inspire you and empty formulas repel you; when you communicate with your fellow workers in foreign countries directly, and no longer through diplomats...”

The Intern's Handbook: A Thriller
I do the rudest thing I can imagine in the company of an attractive woman vying for my attention—I pull out my phone. And I bury my face in its colorful screen, like a crow mesmerized by Christmas tinsel. You know that face. It’s the social networking sneer you see on every app junkie getting a fix. It’s one of the most loathsome cultural phenomena in contemporary society and I can see that she has gone from digging me to wanting to dig her nails into my eyeballs.

By the way, never smile and show your teeth. The pageant people have it wrong. Showing your teeth is always a sign of aggression. This is why Miss America is one of the most hated human beings on earth.

...the pain centers me and makes me forget about the outside world. It reminds me that I am alone and always have been. It forces me to focus on what I have to do.

Always do sober what you said you’d do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut.

Robert B. Parker's Cheap Shot
I again took up the old tactic of running like hell.

Illusions II: The Adventures of a Reluctant Student
This disaster is the chance you prayed for, your wish come true.

Asshole: How I Got Rich & Happy By Not Giving a Damn About Anyone & How You Can, Too
The hardest part was when he had me stare at people until they looked away. “It’s what monkeys do,” he said. “You’re the big freakin’ monkey of Time Warner Center, Chico.” “Don’t call me Chico.” “Alright, Zeppo.” I felt very uncomfortable—but he was watching me, and I thought, “You can’t hurt anybody with your eyes,” but it turned out yes, I could hurt somebody with my eyes. That somebody was me. It was physically painful for me to stare at passersby. I felt a tightening in my chest and shoulders. Then I remembered I always felt that way because I wore small shirts on the mistaken assumption I was going to lose weight someday soon. You too may feel symptoms of panic. Ignore them.

“What you’re doing,” said Al, over a decaf chai at Dean & Deluca afterward, “is seeing the world for what it is.” “Which is what?” “A game. A kid’s game.”

After each so-called setback such as this one, I’d suggest you do a quick post-mortem. Ask yourself three simple questions, in this order: •Where did I go wrong? •Who is plotting to destroy me? •Why am I so good-looking?

5/3/1 for Powerlifting: Simple and Effective Training for Maximal Strength
People have always been working labor jobs for long hours. There are single mom’s working two jobs and still finding time for their kids. There are soldiers that fought for our country that were hungry, tired, thirsty, and with pieces of steel stuck in their bodies, but somehow they were able to pull it together in combat. Why can’t you get your shit together for an hour and do a couple sets of squats?

Stick to Drawing Comics, Monkey Brain!
I spend way too much time thinking of excellent crimes I could commit if I were a crime-committing sort of person. Every time I read about hurricane-related looting, I wonder about the best way to do it.

After I did my looting—or as we white people like to say: “gather my supplies”—I’d motor my little pirate boat down the main street, out to the ocean, and back to my hidden lair that would be stinking of damp merchandise. Sometime soon I plan to do some thinking about ending world hunger. But frankly, that seems harder.

I find that I get mad about all the wrong things. For example, when I hear a news report about some serial killer who buried forty-three victims in an underground bunker that he constructed beneath his shed, my first reaction is Wow, he built an underground bunker under a shed! I find myself admiring his industriousness and passion in the pursuit of his dreams. That’s clearly wrong.

People are often surprised to learn that I consider myself an optimist, albeit an optimist with cynical tendencies and a dark side that Lucifer himself would find a little creepy.

I’m optimistic about myself and about humanity in general. My problem is with the average asshole who I often assume is a self-destructive miscreant, already circling the drain and trying to take me with him. This view is no more “true” than my irrational optimism, but I find it useful to think that way. It keeps me on my toes so I can recognize the most dangerous scams and traps before it’s too late.

Despite my dismal view of many individuals, as a matter of personal preference, I give people my trust before they earn it, so long as the downside of doing so isn’t too deadly. But that has less to do with those other people and more to do with who I want to be. I find that trust changes people. They become what you tell them you expect. Likewise, you become what you expect of yourself.

I believe all people favor what they think is in their best interest and then rationalize it with absurd philosophical arguments. Or worse, they join a “team” and agree with whatever the leader tells them.

Frankly, I’m suspicious of anyone who has a strong opinion on a complicated issue.

People assumed that because I want to label the majority opinion “right” and the minority opinion “wrong” that I would also favor mob rule. No way. I still favor the traditional system where rich people run the country and convince the morons who live here that the voters are really the ones in charge. It’s not a perfect system, but no one has come up with a better one. And it’s fair in the sense that anyone could become rich and abuse the poor.

Science has plenty of evidence showing that free will is an illusion. For example, we know people make decisions before the area of the brain responsible for rational thought even gets activated. In other words, you rationalize after the fact while remembering it as if you had made a conscious choice in advance of the action.

I also wonder if showing respect for all beliefs is causing more problems than it is avoiding. The only thing that prevents most people from acting on their absurd beliefs is the fear that other people will treat them like frickin’ morons. Mockery is an important social tool for squelching stupidity. At least that’s what I tell people after I mock them. Or to put it another way, I’ve never seen anyone change his mind because of the power of a superior argument or the acquisition of new facts. But I’ve seen plenty of people change behavior to avoid being mocked.

When I hear people say that they know God exists because he healed their aunt’s cancer, it sounds to me exactly like “Rocks are liquid because five is greater than six.” It sounds like utter nonsense when it leaves their bubble and enters mine. But I know it makes sense in their bubble. So something must be different in there. In this theory, our brains are nothing but rationalizers for a reality too complex to understand.

My favorite conspiracy theory is the one that says the world is being run by a handful of ultra-rich capitalists, and that our elected governments are mere puppets. I sure hope it’s true. Otherwise my survival depends on hordes of clueless goobers electing competent leaders.

Cold is just a fancy marketing word for a particularly unpleasant form of pain. We should just call it what it is: pain. What’s the temperature in Chicago? Painful.

It has come to my attention that many of your ancestors were pedophiles. They probably didn’t know it, since marrying fifteen-year-old girls was considered “normal” by those perverts. And I’m sure they had excuses such as the fact that the life expectancy was seventeen. So maybe they rationalized it by saying they had to start pinching out new farm hands before the plague got them. Blah, blah, blah. But that’s no excuse for being a pedophile. I also have it on good authority that your ancestors from several thousand years ago rarely washed their hands with soap after pooping in the desert, or forest, or igloo, whatever. You come from a long line of unhygienic child molesters. If you follow your repulsive blood line back far enough, you will find that your ancestors were atheists at best, but more likely worshippers of phalluses. That’s right: You are the genetic fruit of unhygienic, penis-worshipping child molesters. And they couldn’t read—those illiterate, unhygienic, penis-worshipping child molesters. Keep going back in time and there’s a virtual guarantee that somewhere a cousin married a cousin, or a brother married a sister. Statistically speaking, you’re probably an inbred spawn of illiterate, unhygienic, penis-worshipping child molesters.

So how did a twelve-year-old know he should die for his country? That stuff gets in your head early, way before your critical reasoning capacity is in place. And it stays there. Maybe some of it is caused by evolution, but I doubt it. I think the environment puts it there, thanks to nine hundred recitations of the Pledge of Allegiance and whatnot. Evolution might have favored those who protect their family or their tribe, but I doubt it had time to work on “and the people who you don’t know, from all ethnicities, who live on a patch of land recently called the United States.” If I had been born in North Korea I would be making images of the Dear Leader out of rice husks. And I’d be pretty sure he was a living god.

I know that some of you think that life without caffeine is actually worth living. But it isn’t. My first Diet Coke after four days of abstinence was shiver-worthy. I didn’t see the hand that reached inside my head and removed the wads of cotton, but suddenly I remembered that I have hopes and dreams.

I’ve described the clash of Islam and Christianity—everything from the Crusades to the war on terror—as “The people who think a guy walked on water versus the people who think a horse can fly.” I submit that anything you add to that description is unnecessary for understanding the global clash of civilizations.

People often tell me that I seem smarter than I really am. I accept the compliment. As you know, appearances are more important than substance.

It’s important to agree with people if you want them to think you are a genius. For most people, the definition of smart is “Thinks exactly like me but even more so.” If you think that disagreeing and offering excellent reasons for your thinking will change anyone’s mind, you might be new on this planet. The best outcome you can expect from any conversation is that the other person will walk away thinking you’re probably the CEO of something, assuming you also seem selfish, egocentric, and unethical.

I think the real reason anyone believes anything is because uncertainty hurts. So we pick a side and rationalize it later.

I have said before, you never get nailed by the thing you actually worry about. It’s always some totally random event that you couldn’t even imagine.

How accurate is any history book in any country? Here again, context is your best tool for answering that. The first thing you should be looking for is any situation where the people who wrote the history books are portraying their own country and ancestors in a suspiciously positive light. In your lifetime, you’ve probably noticed that your own government, whichever one that is, spends a lot of time killing people who, in retrospect, didn’t deserve it. So it should strike you as curious if your nation’s history up until the time you were born was comprised mostly of wars against people who started it first and deserved what they got. You rarely see a country with a history book that says, “We were jerks, so other countries came and killed us in large numbers. We totally deserved it.” World War II is the best example of suspicious interpretations of history. Every country has its own spin. America’s Version: Crazy Germans, Japanese, and Italians tried to conquer the world. It almost worked, until America saved the day. Japan’s Version: Japan tried to bring some improvements to neighboring countries, free of charge. America bombed us until we stopped. German Version: Adolf Hitler (technically an Austrian) caused some mischief. Germans played along because they don’t like to make waves. The key learning here is that you shouldn’t trust Austrians.

In case you ever consider getting off caffeine yourself, let me explain the process. You begin by sitting motionlessly in a desk chair. Then you just keep doing that forever because life has no meaning

There are many methods for predicting the future. For example, you can read horoscopes, tea leaves, tarot cards, or crystal balls. Collectively, these methods are known as ‘nutty methods.’ Or you can put well-researched facts into sophisticated computer models, more commonly referred to as ‘a complete waste of time.’

As I write this, my Internet connection has been down for a day. I don’t want to sound as if I’m starting to panic or anything, but I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t given some thought to binge drinking.

I keep hearing the argument that some things are constitutional while other things are not. The idea is that we should be in favor of all the things that were decided over two hundred years ago by a bunch of slave-owning cross-dressers who pooped in holes.

Everyone says there’s a lack of leadership in the world these days. I think we should all be thankful, because the only reason for leadership is to convince people to do things that are either dangerous (like invading another country) or stupid (working extra hard without extra pay).

Micro
 Indoctrinating children in proper environmental thought was a hallmark of the green movement, and so children were being instructed to protect something about which they knew nothing at all...

Perhaps the single most important lesson to be learned by direct experience is that the natural world, with all its elements and interconnections, represents a complex system and therefore we cannot understand it and we cannot predict its behaviour.  It is delusional to behave as if we can, as it would be delusional to behave as if we could predict the stock market, another complex system. If someone claims to predict what a stock will do in the coming days, we know that person is either a crook or a charlatan.  If an environmentalist makes similar claims about the environment, or an ecosystem, we have not yet learned to see him as a false prophet or a fool. Human beings interact with complex systems very successfully. We do it all the time. But we do it by managing them, not by claiming to understand them...  There is an endless iterative interaction that acknowledges we don't know for sure what the system will do - we have to wait and see.  We may have hunch we know what will happen.  We may be right much of the time.  But we are never certain.  Interacting with the natural world, we are denied certainty.  And always will be.

Sunday, March 02, 2014

Reading - Jan & Feb - "Life not lived to be safe..."

The Brotherhood of the Screaming Abyss: My Life with Terence Mckenna by Dennis McKenna

Sex, Sin, and Zen: A Buddhist Exploration of Sex from Celibacy to Polyamory and Everything in Between Paperback by Brad Warner

Graveyard of Memories (John Rain Thrillers) by Barry Eisler

Stretching Your Boundaries: Flexibility Training for Extreme Calisthenic Strength by Al Kavadlo

Jonathan Livingston Seagull: The New Complete Edition by Richard Bach

Ladyboys: The secret world of Thailand's Third Gender by Susan Aldous & Pornchai Sereemongkonpol

Robert B. Parker's Cole and Hitch Series - Appaloosa, Resolution, Brimstone & Blue-Eyed Devil

JSA Liberty Files: The Whistling Skull (Justice Society of America) by B. Clay Moore and Tony Harris

All Star Superman by Grant Morrison and Frank Quitely

Archer & Armstrong Volume 2: Wrath Of The Eternal Warrior and Volume 3: Far, Faraway by Fred Van Lente and various artists

Werewolf by Night: In the Blood by Duane Swierczynski and Mico Suayan

Jonathan Livingston Seagull:
“The only true law is that which leads to freedom,” Jonathan said. “There is no other.”

Sex, Sin and Zen:
"The key aspect that makes the Buddhist attitude towards sex utterly different is that the concept of sin does not exist in Buddhism...  As Westerners, our belief in sin is so deep that we tend to think of it as a real and substantial thing, even if we are not devoutly religious...  Our belief in sin runs so deep that even when we learn that Buddhism does not have this concept, we try to look for it anyway."

"Buddhism starts from the basic premise that neither materialism nor idealism is correct... [both] are manifestations of one underlying reality that is neither spirit nor matter."

"The idea in Zen is that the best way to truly do good for the world at large is to get yourself together."

"You can't rescue everybody, but you can make efforts to save them from yourself.  That's the one place where you can really be effective."

"The habit of attaching to emotions and incorporating them into the sense of self is so strong that we’ll grab on hard to even the most unpleasant feelings that come along. In fact, “bad” feelings are often much better at reinforcing our sense of self than “good” feelings. We hang on for dear life to these emotions, lest our sense of who we are should collapse. We very literally feel like we’ll die if we don’t. Habits like this have us abusing our bodies and minds in ways that lead to all kinds of trouble."

"...lots of people get rich pandering to base desires. And lots of us wouldn’t have jobs at all if it weren’t for them. When something sells, it indicates a need for human beings to explore that particular aspect of their collective consciousness. In and of itself, this is neither good nor bad. Sometimes we need to open up to stuff."

"I'm not a big fan of 'what-if' scenarios. They're fun in science fiction and may have some value when making contingency plans, but generally they mostly just cause the brain to start spinning out fantasies."

"...beauty is an expression of truth."

"Desiring less is one aim of Zen practice, but achieving some mythical state of desirelessness is not."

"...the Buddhist notion of emptiness refers to the world as it is when emptied of our preconceived notions, opinions, desires, and all the rest of the baggage we bring to any situation we encounter."

"...none of the Buddhist precepts is ever to be used as a means for judging the behavior of others, only for judging your own."

"...a lot of religion is based on making you feel guilty about something you can't possibly help.  They create the problem, then say, "Here, I'll save you!""

"NH: But everyone can be like me -- meaning, finding your truth and living it. Your truth wont look like mine. Your truth is going to be monogamous and heterosexual because thats true for you. In that way youre like me. My husband and I have a D/S RELATIONSHIP. That was a new kind of sex for me. I didnt know anything about bondage or sadomasochism. I'd never done actual, official power exchange. But its his sexuality. He doesnt have any vanilla. His sexual orientation is kink. I really loved him; I wanted him so I had to learn his language. So anybody can be like me, which is getting rid of guilt and shame about sex and your desires. You can have whatever desires you want once you stop repressing, being stressed over and suppressing and all the things we do when we dont want to face the truth of our desires. They are what they are. With my other belief systems in place, are there any parts of these desires I can actually express?  You have to make a choice. But it's easier to make a choice when you're not fleeing from shame, fear and guilt. I believe that what gets you off is what gets you off.  And that's biological. On top of that is the cultural condemnation of what it is. Youre not supposed to want someone of your own gender, youre not supposed to want someone out of your marriage, not supposed to want someone before marriage. We spend all this time going, 'What's wrong with me? Oh my God!'

...Actually the initial 70s feminism was very pro-porn. They were very pro-decriminalization of prostitution...  That was when they were working for sex workers rights. Back when the mainstream feminist movement thought women could think for themselves. In the porn wars of the mid-80s created the current split in feminism between the pro and anti censorship forces. Im a sex positive feminist. The so-called Left in this country has been completely hijacked by the anti-sex fanatics...  These women question a woman's ability, not right, a woman's ability to do informed sex work of any kind. For them, dirty pictures is such an over-riding issue that the feminist left is completely silent on anything to do with women's sexual freedom because "women are such victims and men are such pigs." This group of people think that women are oppressed as a class. Women are a gender, not a class. It's insulting. Sex workers have been willing to talk to people for 35 years. I used to go to NOW conferences and there'd be a dozen sex workers of different kinds and they regarded like we were goblins or trolls or hobbits. We'd be saying, As a woman, here is my experience in pornography and they didn't want to know. If you say, Dirty pictures skeeve me out and bug me, then we can have a conversation. On most other issues we agree, I'm against the war in Iraq, Id like to see national health care, etc. But I see men as human, I see men as equally victimized by the system. Men are also victims of the patriarchy. The anti-porn feminists are all about The Patriarchy. Its like they think they get together every Tuesday to talk about how they can use porn to keep women down.
BW: Oh! They know about us!
NH: [Laughs] Every country has its patriarchy. It's the same 200 families who've run the country forever. So you're no more a member of the patriarchy than I am. Most people do jobs they don't like. Most people work too hard for not enough money. Most people are humiliated in their day-to-day work by their horrible bosses and, quite frankly, men have it worse than women.
BW: We do?
NH: Yes, because at least women have the comfort of having girlfriends. I can come to a girlfriend and unload my feelings and get some support and some fucking compassion. You, if your'e lucky, might have a partner you can talk to about things. But the average guy cant go to his guy friends and say, I'm hurt, I'm scared, I'm nervous, I'm worried, frightened. You can be angry, pissed off, that's it...

BW: I think the problem is when you try to make a blanket rule for everybody.
NH: And this country does. Frankly I'd like to see less sex in advertising and more freedom in private. The idea that what you do over there harms me over here, I find very disturbing. How is my happy marriage the way we have with our sexuality hurting your traditional marriage? How does the existence of gay marriage harm your traditional marriage? It doesn't make any sense. Of course gays should marry; they should be as unhappy as the rest of us, as one comedian put it. A good marriage takes work. This is what I don't get about certain feminists. Actions hurt people. Thoughts don't harm people. Whatever you're thinking about me right now doesn't harm me.
BW: No, it doesn't.

NH: Early feminists went to Arabia and said how nice the burkha was cause it took off the pressure of the male gaze. For them, male desire was also desire to harm. You're conquesting us, penetrating us, conquering us! I thought we were having fun. It goes both ways. I like it. You like it. I objectify women and I look at them and I desire them without having any desire to harm so I knew from my own experience that I could objectify and not wish to harm... Besides, I liked having people look at me naked, even if they were guys. Guys are fun! And I found out that the more nudity there is, the better-behaved men are...  It's like, if you do this, the naked tits will stay. OK. I can do that! Men are very rule oriented. What are the rules for naked boobs being in the room? I'll follow those rules. Let me know what they are and dont change in the middle. Women do that sometimes. That can be very annoying. I realized that part of my power over men is in not hating him for wanting to look. Hes a straight guy; of course he wants to look at naked women! Duh! So instead of shaming him and taking his money, I was like [smiles], Hey look! I like to show off...

Men are hungry for information from an actual female who'll actually say something to them about it. I had instant compassion for them right away as equal human beings, equally beaten down by the patriarchy and equally lost and wandering. Men are shit out of luck if they need comfort or compassion or care. That just pisses me off. I'm always very physical with my fans. I hug them. I touch them. I squeeze their shoulders. I have to let them know that I really do mean it."

"Buddhism is about transcending your emotions...  Transcending emotions doesn't mean you have no feelings.  You have them.  But you recognize them for what they are and respond appropriately without letting them develop into what we call emotions, which are really just feelings that have been blown way out of proportion."

"Morality is a personal matter...  the precepts are a list of the common habits of Buddhists, not rules Buddhists must follow."

"A strong tendency to identify oneself as a member of some particular group tends to become a hurdle to overcome..."

"The real root of our problems as human beings is the way we fly off into imagining how things could, or should, be."

"No matter what the contents of your thoughts are, they are all just thoughts.  This is very easy to say but very difficult to truly understand because we've been taught since birth to believe in our own thoughts...  Once you've seen what these thoughts and memories truly are, you come to see that they have far less power than you imagined they did.  And once you've seen how powerless all thoughts really are, you can transcend these memories and the detrimental effects they've had on you.  The key is to see what's going on right now..."

"You can't really help feeling whatever you feel at any given moment.  But you do have a choice whether or not to pursue those feelings and roll around in them..."

"Any enlightenment that needs to be confirmed by an outside authority isn't really enlightenment."

"Without any followers, people who think they’re God’s messengers are just delusional."

"...its entire message could be summed up in three words:  Just be careful...  Don't be reckless with sex.  You can really hurt someone if you are, and you can really hurt yourself."

Graveyard of Memories:
"It’s funny to consider how important things like that felt to me then. Proving people wrong. Fighting stupidity. Wanting formal recognition. It took me a long time to learn that proving people wrong is purposeless, fighting stupidity is futile, and formal recognition prevents people from underestimating you—and thereby from ceding to you surprise and other tactical advantages."

"Making things harder as a way of fostering gaman—perseverance, endurance, fortitude—was a Japanese fetish, and I loved it."

"It was only later that I came to learn how dangerous it is to allow yourself to be seduced by that first attractive theory. If you don’t keep testing for alternatives, you might wind up satisfying yourself with, and proceeding on, what’s no more than a partial truth. And a partial truth, I would understand soon enough, can be more dangerous than a lie."

"I wonder if we ever recognize the forks in the road we sometimes come to. They’re not common in life, and they’re never marked."

"People talk about morality. Sometimes I think there’s just what you can do, and what you can’t. Well, I could. And I was going to."

"Every morning I woke up during the war was a day I might kill someone. But in the war, I had never known whom. And anyway, of course I was supposed to kill someone, even a lot of people—after all, it was a war. As Patton said, the point was to make some other dumb bastard die for his country. This was different. This was specific. And it wasn’t sanctioned. But did that make it worse? Killing someone specific was worse than killing someone generic? Killing someone for my own reasons was worse than killing someone for reasons I was told by some politician? It might have been another rationalization. But I couldn’t argue with the logic, either. And in the end, I was going to do it anyway."

"More than anything else, killing is about survival. About doing everything you can to deceive, and cheat, and stack the odds in your own favor. You don’t wait for the other guy to go for his gun; you shoot him before he has a chance. If he has his back to you, that’s even better. If you can call in an air strike, that’s better still. You don’t just do everything you possibly can to prevent a fight from being fair—preventing the fight from being fair is the entire point. Do you want the enemy to have as good a chance of killing you as you have of killing him? Or do you want to make sure he gets no chance at all? As far as I’m concerned, the people who think a fair fight is desirable can go ahead and die in one."

"I was too young to know that some memories don’t fade, or age, or die. That the weight of some of what we do accumulates, expands, coheres, solidifies. That life means coming to grips with that ever-present weight, learning how to carry it with you wherever you go, understanding and accepting that it’ll be with you and on you and in you for all your days, until you reach a point where all the energy you ever had is devoted just to shouldering its mass. And when you’re finally able to set down that burden, it’ll only be because it was time to set down everything else, too, everything you had, or have, or were ever going to have. And you better hope that’s really the end of it, because no one knows what happens after."

"...people think bravery comes entirely from within, but it doesn’t. It depends on a lot of things. Maybe one of them is just…where you live. Your culture, your surroundings.”

"Trying to stamp out payoffs to politicians is like trying to outlaw prostitution. Hell, it’s the same as trying to outlaw prostitution."

"I’d figured out there are no bad guys, any more than there are good guys. There are only smart people, and stupid ones; puppets, and puppet masters. Better a wise rōnin, I decided, than a naïve samurai."

The Cole and Hitch Series:
"Life not lived to be safe. Safe make you weak. Make you slow. Make you tired." - Pony Flores

"I liked whiskey. I didn't like how it tasted. But I liked the way it made me feel, unless I drank too much." - Everett Hitch

"So, we sit tight," I said. "See what develops."
"Be my plan," Virgil said.