No sleep till America.

Apparently. Last two nights of weird dreams, restless sleep... makes for a bone deep tired sense of lethargy throughout the day. Subconscious twisting through the upcoming vacay back to the States, maybe. Couple nights of dreams where my mom shows up for one reason or another - never remember the whys or wherefores of dreams - discomfiting enough, regardless of the fact I'm not actually gonna see her... analysis, juxtapositions, sensitivity, thinking... shutting down the mind harder and harder.

Particularly vivid dreams last night of swimming... psuedo Aquaman fantasies? Traveling across the oceans to go back to the U.S.? Vaguest memories of racing someone in the ocean, and then throwing the race for conscious but no discernible reasons... who knows? Weirdness all around.

Meaning of Dreams about Swimming: Dream Interpretation Dictionary - Swimming:

"If you are swimming in your dream you are most likely swimming through the ' ocean' of your unconscious and through the ' sea ' of your emotions. The ease with which you are doing this activity will give you clues as to how well you are navigating through those very complex parts of yourself. Are you out of your depth or winning a race"

Dream symbolism and dream dictionary interpretation - the meaning of swimming in dream analysis:

"SWIMMING: Swimming in dreams can show that you have really changed or want to change in some way in your life. You are thinking strongly about emotional matters and making real attempts to improve your emotional situation. So look for ways in which you have been emotionally reflective."

* Swimming - (Dreams): Definition:

"Swimming can represent moving forward in your life or trying to achieve a goal (get somewhere in your life), or freedom from your usual limitations."

Swimming Dream interpretation - What does swimming in a dream mean?:

"Psychological Meaning: Expanses of water usually symbolises the unconscious. Dreaming of swimming shows how you trust the unconscious and are supported by it. You have confidence and are receptive to its creative power. If you dream of swimming underwater this may indicate that you have accepted and are at one with your unconscious. [Not fucking likely. - Rob] This union is even more apparent if you dream of being able to breathe underwater.

Mystical Meaning: Swimming strongly in clear water means you will achieve great success in love and business. The opposite applies if you struggle or the water is dirty."